i dont know

i just realise i got no one to talk to when i m feeling down. kinda feel like a failure of myself. i felt really upset for the past few days..i dont know whether the problem is on myself for being too fragile or i being too sensitive all the while??or that's other people's problem. i dont know and i never dare to think about it.
i thought i can rely on u..but i found out that i shouldnt and i couldnt. i am just being too innocent and stupid to be believe in u. maybe i should just learn to be independent again and grown up, turn a new page of my life....maybe..its really the time for me to grow up.
maybe this is just part of the reality of the world. we shouldnt trust anyone..and I SHOULDNT too...sorry...

First blog after stopped blogging for such a long time. I got nothing special to brag about. Just something to relax and write out what i feel so.
I dont know why..but just feel very unhappy lately. I wondered, why people always find me for helping them instead of chatting with them? i mean, whenever i need someone to talk to, i talked to people which i believed that they will understand me, and yet end up they just pour the cold water from the top of my head to my toes..totally...i mean i got use to it. and i never care, so sometimes i chose not to say.
But sometimes when u need me to listen to u, u just come to me and talked and expected me to hear it. Why is this?? And most...unacceptable, u just come to ask for help from me. I always know that this world is very cruel. Bu i never know that can be that cruel.
Maybe i jsut get upset with anything and anyone arouse me...i m sick of the pretending face. I feel like crying...